I climb into my bath and let the heat of the water and coconut oil melt into my skin. Slowly submerging my head under water as I sink into an abyss. My hair starts to fill out and float to the surface, looking like Medusa herself in the flesh. I hold my breath as long as I can and let my mind run rampant. My thoughts beat on my temple like a snare drum as I try and dissect my subconscious and unconscious mind. The only thought and question that erupts through me and my inner being keeps yelling at me is;

Why do you keep doing this to yourself?